Sometimes I have found myself living very much in the moment but there are other times when my focus is on what's next, what's next. I don't particularly like that feeling. Right now there are so many things to think about that are coming up that I forget to think about and experience what's happening in the here and now. We're going to China in less than a week but I'm ironing some details out for our second trip there in June as we book flights home. My thoughts have been on that second trip quite a bit. I need to step back and remind myself, hey, you're going to CHINA in five days. How cool is that?!

I spent some time sitting on a park bench yesterday, getting back into the here and now. It was a beautiful day but I was feeling a little melancholy having just said goodbye to Gavin. It felt like a good time to spend some time biking around the art park and then finding myself a spot of sunshine to sit for awhile. Unfortunately, just as I settled into the first spot I chose, the sprinklers came on and surprised everyone nearby, but I did find an even better bench to settle on. It was such a beautiful day and really smelled and felt like spring. Last year it seemed like spring weather for most of November through April - dry and cool - and then suddenly it was hot and humid summer weather. I like when there's a pause between seasons when the air feels and smells a little different. Yesterday had that smell of new growth, that feel of warmth in the sun and cool in the shade, that you get on those uniquely spring days. It was a good re-charging moment.